I had an abortion five years ago and it was the worst experience I have ever felt. I knew the truth and knew exactly what I was doing. I did it because I was afraid of what everyone would think of me at the time because I was pregnant and not married and the fact I was a Christian. I only used abortion as "a way out." After going through that, I don't understand how woman can have multiple abortions and not have a second thought about it. My experience was horrible and I felt darkness all around me when I was going through it. This is something I would never consider again. I am ashamed of what I did...

Age: 26
Date: January 6, 2007

I am now 36 years young and I had an abortion when I was 19. I highly recommend it to no one!! My life has not been the same every since, to say the least. Nothing about it makes me feel that I made the right choice. My life went to gloom and doom... Today I have asked for Gods' forgiveness but, how long it takes to forgive myself.

Age: 36
Date: December 29, 2006

My boyfriend got me pregnant, and I didnt know. He left me. He abused me, we argued all the time. I got knocked out and started to bleed some, the baby was in my tubes any way, and I had to get rid of it. He acts like he's happy and doesn't care. Now that the child is gone, he wont even talk to me b/c he feels that he is off the hook. And I feel so bad I want to die.

Age: 20
Date: December 25, 2006

I used to be a "N.O.W." woman. Then I saw what my 4 children looked like in the womb.... before I killed them. My first abortion was when I was barely 16 years old, 1985, seems like so many years ago. I thought I was only 10 weeks pregnant, I went to an abortion clinic (Planned Parenthood) in Ocala, Florida. They told me it was just a "blob"... "hasn't even formed yet", they said. Well, turns out that I was about 16 weeks along and all of the nurses came running in when the doctor said "Oh my god". They said it was "all right".... "just a little more complicated than expected"... draped me with a sheet so that I couldn't see and went to work. If only I could have seen past that sheet.... I would have never had another abortion again...

Age: 37
Date: December 24, 2006

When I was in high school, [I had an abortion]. Since then, I have spent every day of my life with regret, anger, sadness, and hurt. There is something missing in my life that will never be replaced. Seven years later, I am a mother of a 6 year old, 6 month old, and I am currently 5 months pregnant. I am happy with my family, but like I said, there is an empty hole that was supposed to be filled. I beg God for forgiveness. I just wanted to let you know, that your page touched my heart. I have never cried this hard in a long time. It opened my eyes...

Date: December 16, 2006

I had an abortion an the age of 14. I thought it was the only way out. It's been five months, now, and I still haven't gotten over the pain it caused me. I still wonder if God has forgiven me for the sin I have done.

Age: 15
Date: December 12, 2006

It's been 6 months (since my abortion), and it still hurts me inside and I cry myself to sleep every night. My baby would have been a girl and she would have been born on May 27th, 2007, and her name would have been angelica....but now today it is too late to go back.

Age: 16
Date: December 9, 2006

I'm a student in high school. I had an abortion before. Now, I want [abortion] to end because it's really painful. You don't know what you're doing, you just want the pain to go away and you think if you get an abortion no one will know. You are only killing something that's so precious inside of you. You only think to ask god to help relieve the pain and go and cry yourself to sleep.

Age: 18
Date: December 4, 2006

I was 15 years old when I became pregnant by a 23 year old man. When I told him I was pregnant, he told me I had to have an abortion. At the time, I felt so alone and helpless that I agreed to the abortion. I think that I was at 22 weeks of gestation at the time of the abortion. After the abortion was performed, I was told there were twins. Since then, I have felt an enormous guilt. I didn't know how abortions were performed. I used to think that babies didn't feel anything until they were born. At the time, I didn't know the terrible mistake that I was making and that it was going to haunt me forever. I feel so sorry for what I did. If I had known how abortion is done, I never would have agreed to it. Now I have two children, but both of them were premature babies... I could not have a normal pregnancy due to the abortion I had 13 years ago. It is hard to know that I had an abortion. I feel like a monster. How could I have caused such horrible deaths to my other children? I just hope that God forgives me for my horrible sin.

Date: November 13, 2006

I was 17 when I found out I was pregnant. I was scared and decided that I could never have this baby. I started thinking about me. What will people think, what will my friends think? All this became a burden. I thought abortion was the only choice. My boyfriend at the time did not agree with my choice but we both were in no position to care for a baby. I went to the clinic and had the procedure. When I woke up from the procedure, tears were in my eyes. I felt ashamed, guilty, and dirty. I thought I would be fine afterwards, if only I knew that nothing would be fine. Years have passed and still that day is so clear in my mind. There isn't a day that go by that I don't regret my abortion. There would be times when I would just cry for hours. I became depressed and suicidal. When my mother found out, she was disappointed. We have never been able to look at each other the same. I'm still hiding, hiding in my lie and shame. I have not recovered and I don't think that I will. Abortion is never a solution!!

Date: November 5, 2006

** NOTE: THIS IS THE FIRST TESTIMONY THAT ABORT73 HAS EVER RECEIVED FROM A WOMAN "CELEBRATING" HER ABORTION. BECAUSE OF THE ACCUSATIONS SHE MAKES, WE ARE COMPELLED TO INCLUDE IT. THE TONE OF HER REMARKS LEAD US TO BELIEVE THAT SHE MAY NOT BE QUITE AS AT PEACE WITH HER ABORTION AS SHE CLAIMS TO BE.

I had an abortion a few years back and I have NEVER regretted it. You throw religion into your argument, well, GOD DOES NOT EXIST. EDUCATE YOURSELF! This entire website must be run by narrow minded, bigoted Republicans. Women will get abortions, legal or not. KEEP YOUR LAWS AND YOUR RELIGION OFF MY BODY. Deciding to have an abortion is NOT a "Choice Facade". Intelligent young women who, holy crap, can think on their own, without BLINDLY following "god" or other fake deities, do not come to this decision easily. But when it is made, it's done. After my abortion, when I was in the "recovery room" with about a dozen other girls, the topic of regret came up and NOT ONE of them said they regretted what had just happened. You can preach all you want, but you are just singing to yourselves. Also, I absolutely love how on your "Testimony" page, YOU ONLY HAVE POSTS FROM FEMALES WHO REGRET THEIR DECISION. This website is completely geared towards forcing women to keep their UNWANTED pregnancies. I did not find one "I'm glad I did it" post. This website isn't informative, it is PROPAGANDA. If there is a god, he hates you.

Date: November 1, 2006

I had my abortion when I was 18, and my story is the same as alot of women here, except that I didn't see anyone mention "The Silent Scream". It is an ultrasound movie done during the abortion. It also fully explains the abortion process. Had I seen this movie first, I never would have had an abortion, I would have lost my 18 year old figure and found some way to deal with it. I'm pregnant again, at 5 months, and shudder to think of my "fetus" going through that. Sure it will come back to haunt you one way or another, but once you know how its done, and see it demonstrated on a plastic fetus, then see the ultra sound and the fetus struggling to escape the "instruments", [you'll never consider abortion again].

Date: October 31, 2006

I was someone who fell thru the cracks when I was 20 years old. It has been 15 years since then and I am still trying to heal. I was coerced by family to have an abortion. I was young and had no clue what I really was getting myself into. I just knew I couldn't fight anymore. I tried so hard to keep the baby... but lost. Everywhere I went, everyone kept telling me about abortion and not ONE person ever reached out and told me what abortion was or that they would show me HOW to keep my child or give it up for adoption. I suffered for 13 years until I finally reached out for help. I drank constantly to stuff my emotions and pain back down. I numbed myself with drugs. I couldn't envision that day ever again.. it was too painful. It wasn't until I joined a post-abortion group and a pro-life group that I truly began to slowly heal. I named the baby and basically had to go thru the grieving process, like I had actually lost a child that was born to me. I have forgiven myself, by the grace of God... He has given me my strength. I have helped many girls so far deal with their issues and actually saved one girl from having [an abortion]... she now has a beautiful baby boy and has thanked me over and over again for befriending her when no one else would talk to her.

Date: September 27, 2006

I became pregnant at 15 and decided to keep my baby. She is now married with 3 beautiful children of her own. I had another baby at 18, and he now is married with a baby on the way. In my early and mid twenties, I regretably had 3 abortions, one of which was a late term abortion. I've just in the last week found out how it was performed and it makes my heart literally hurt. I didn't know the facts about what I was doing or the depression it would cause. I was a selfish, stupid person. I was in denial and didn't want to face what I had done. When I was 30 years old, I became pregnant again. I was in an abusive relationship and was being told to have an abortion. I made the appointment and hated every waking moment up to that day. I just wanted to die knowing what I was about to do again. That morning I woke up and said NO!!! I refused to go through with it. My daughter, born 8 months later is so beautiful. She makes me smile everyday. She sings for the Lord. She has impacted so many lives. It has never been easy. I've had many years of nightmares and suffer from depression. I know God has forgiven me for what I've done. I just hope and pray I will be able to forgive myself. Thank you for this site and the realization of the horrific practice of legalized murder in our world.

Date: September 20, 2006

I had just turned 17 when I found out I was pregnant. Being young and very scared, I told my mom. She didn't really give me a choice; I remember her saying "I just don't know how you're going to be able to keep it." When I went to the clinic to confirm it, the nurse talked about both abortion and adoption. But my mom never supported adoption, only just getting it over and done with. I had 4 days to "make a decision". I don't feel like it was my decision to make; I was coerced into it. When I went to the clinic to have the procedure done, I was very scared and didn't want to do it. I remember not wanting to sign the paper authorizing it. The nurse asked my mom to leave the room and then she asked me if I was being forced to do it. I told her that I just didn't know but I was so scared. I was 11 wks., almost 12. The first day they placed the laminarias and I went home. I remember that night holding my stomach and sobbing, knowing that it wasn't right. I have never felt so trapped in my life. The next day we went back (my mom and I). I remember being so upset that I didn't want to go in the room. They were all telling me that I had to; I had signed the paper and I couldn't back out. My mom and I went for a short walk so I could calm down. She talked me back into it again. I cried during the whole procedure. The Dr. said to me afterwards '"why are you crying?" and was nasty towards me... "you're the one that got yourself into this mess, I'm just getting you out of it." It is almost 10 yrs. later and I still am riddled with guilt. I feel like I killed my baby. I have 2 kids now and I still greive for my first child. Never again would do I it.

Date: September 13, 2006

At the age of 18.... I became pregnant. I did not find out until I was 10 weeks. I was pregnant by a boy that beat me, cheated on me daily. He respected no woman and I did not want my child to grow up in a home or around anyone like that, so I felt [abortion] was best. It ended at 11.5 weeks. To this day I suffer from depression, partially caused by what I did. I remember everything, down to the taste in my mouth when I was being put to sleep. I feel selfish and cruel. Now having 2 children, I look at myself as a killer and I have no right to live. I feel my kids are going to be hurt as a punishment. Before [abortion] is done, I believe women should go through counseling... the part that hurts me the most, is that I said sorry, and wanted to say, "stop this", and "I do not want to do this". The next thing I knew I woke up in a room with other women, feeling like I should die.

Date: September 9, 2006

Like so many others who have shared their stories, I had an abortion, felt trapped, regretted it from day one, and have found it hard to forgive myself. When I first worried about being pregnant at 16, my boyfriend said not to worry, he'd take on however many jobs he needed to, to take care of me and the baby. We bought a pregnancy test together, and while we waited for the results, he held me and reassured me that he'd be there. As soon as I walked into the bathroom and saw the pink line showing I was pregnant, I screamed. I literally, audibly screamed. And the first thing my boyfriend said was "I'll go call and find out about an abortion." I felt so betrayed, and I knew it was wrong, but I didn't stop it... The procedure was horrible and uncomfortable and unpleasant. When I went to get up, I fainted. The nurses (or assistants or whatever) made fun of me for being weak.... I had a not-so-close friend who asked me all about it, and she was the only one I told... she had told me she thought she would have one if she became pregnant... I can't believe it, but I actually told her it wasn't that bad! I told her that it was uncomfortable and I was upset about it, but I was really glad not to have a baby. To this day, I feel responsible not only for the death of my baby, but also for any she might have had... I lied to my family, my friends, and most of all, to myself. I told myself God wouldn't want a baby to be born to me, at that stage in life. God wouldn't want a baby to be poor, unwanted, undernourished; wouldn't want me to be disowned, exposed, hated; wouldn't want me to skip college, or have all my "God-given" potential to go to waste. I thought my intelligence would go to waste if I had a baby - I didn't even think that raising a baby is a great way to give back to the world. I lied to myself. I justified it, even though there is no justification for it...

Date: September 5, 2006

I was forced by my mother to have an abortion at the age of fifteen. I was told I would have no place to go. The abortion was a two day procedure and it was painful. It has been 13 years... I would never as long as I live have an abortion again. I wish resources like this one would have been available to me and I could have found an outreach center. Thank you for this web site and I will pass on the information.

Age: 28
Date: August 24, 2006

As a well educated woman, I am shocked that I was never really aware of all the facts regarding abortion. I believed the American lie, just get rid of it, never understanding that it truly was a life. I lament now because I encouraged my younger sister while she was attending law school to have an abortion. My words exactly, "either you kill it or it will kill you". Well, she graduated from law school in 1992 and has never really been able to practice. For years we all thought she was nuts! My poor sister has been a cripple since she decided to terminate her pregnancy and lose her child to death. She is now in AA, holding down a very low functioning job, living in a slum and has been completely lost since her third year in law school. I not only lost a niece or nephew, I lost my sister too. Abortion not only kills children, it destroys women too! The big lie that this will give women freedom, don't believe it... Not a day goes by where I don't wish I could take back my words of advice to my younger sister, I pray for forgiveness. But now, I need to help educate the next generation of women and young men, abortion is not a solution! It kills children and women alike.

Age: 46
Date: August 16, 2006

I got pregnant and I was always very pro choice. I always stated I would never have an abortion but that was "their choice". They being the woman. I told my grandparents who I live with, and my mother. My boyfriend also told his family. We stated that we had already decided to keep our child. "Every child a wanted child"...The way I feel is "every abortion a wanted abortion". I was taken to a different town... I was afraid for me and my baby and I knew no one. I had no way to keep this baby... So I had an abortion. I figured after it was all over I would be "relieved". Well I wasn't. That was over nine months ago and I was terribly depressed and still am... I just know that if abortion was highly restricted or illegal this would never, ever happen to another girl. I support your cause.

Age: 15
Date: August 8, 2006