I’m a working mother, 24 years old, with 2 children, 7 and 4 years of age–still trying to get through college and advance my career. When I found out I was pregnant, I didn’t know whether to be happy or sad. It was unplanned and unexpected. The day after the unprotected sex, I went to the Pharmacist and took the Plan B Pill, which I thought would be successful. It was not. I took a pregnancy test two weeks later which confirmed positive. I remember looking at the test astonished. The father and I were on up and down roller-coaster for most of the year and a half we were together. A lot of emotional, mental abuse, lack of affection, infidelity, the list goes on. Even more so, there have been times when I feared for my life and the sake of my children. When I told him, he was unsure of what we should do and had mixed emotions. If I chose to get an abortion, this would be his 3rd child lost. That left me feeling kind of sad, but things got worse. He gave me mixed emotions, but never showed any support for what I was going through, or how we would make this work. I didn’t want to bring my child into this world out of wedlock or be a single mom again with 3 children.
It was 1.7.12 when I scheduled my 1st counseling session for abortion. When I saw my angel on that ultrasound, my heart melted with joy. I even saved a picture on my phone. Still having doubts because of all the scrutiny, I went in the next business day for the procedure. Laid back on the table, the doctor placed the speculum and inserted the needle that contained numbing medication into my cervix. It was then something came over me and I screamed “I cant do this to my baby,” and he stopped. I couldn’t do it. I had made up my mind, I would keep my baby regardless of all odds. After that scary situation, I said I would name my blessing a name dealing with life. Because this was a miracle child.
On 2.4.12 I was back in the clinic, and I did it. I gave another man permission to murder my child!!!! It was awful, and even though I felt alone when I was pregnant, I never felt more alone, not having my baby inside of me. To feel his/her heartbeat when I hold my belly was a right I no longer have. I feel as if I’m dreaming because the heart, caring & motherly nature that I have. I let the Devil win and take over my strong mind that day, and my baby is GONE. If you are reading this and thinking of doing an abortion please DON’T! This pain and blood I carry on my hands is unbearable. I wouldn’t wish this on my worst enemy. My life has changed completely. I will never be the same woman as before. I feel worthless. I felt it was a selfish choice. More than anything I wouldn’t have regretted my baby when I looked into his/her eyes on 8.4.12. But I regret doing that to my Angel.
I’m serious people, these Regret stories or serious. Abortion is nothing to play with. Raising a child is not as life altering as dealing with the mental anguish you’ll carry from ridding what you think is a “Major Problem” or “Major Delay.” You were given that life for a reason, cherish it. My baby is now in God’s hands, and I pray that if he gives me another privilege to carry a child, my unborn’s soul shines through his brother or sister.
Location: Greensborro, NC
Date: February 5, 2012