I got rid of my baby a few years ago. There was an Indian man I was with. I was still very naive and childish when I found out I was pregnant. I wished to have a family, but could not trust my partner who got even more confused than me:(( We used to live in the UK back than and he worked illegally there, so there was a slim chance to get married without him getting caught. I wished to have a husband, not only a boyfriend. I was in trouble and could not guess if the guy was with me for visa or not. He tried to take me to church to get married while I tried to explain that I was scared he would get caught by the police and sent back to India for good, leaving me a single mum in the UK, in a country I don't even originate from! He then told be to take a pill to kill the child as he said: "I don't want that kid if you don't marry me." It was a nightmare. Horrible paradox: I killed my baby because I feared to be a single mum and not able to make a proper family for it:( I cannot properly describe what damage it has caused to me in my future relationships with men. Now I am in love, but still continue to talk about the issue that has made me not stronger, but more vulnerable. I BEG you ladies, please, please don't do what I did!! No matter the reason. You will know, even on the day of the abortion that it's wrong. It's killing.
Date: March 7, 2012