I had my abortion not even a week ago. The procedure was last Tuesday. I was always so against abortion. I've been pro-life since I could remember. When I was 16, I got pregnant with my boyfriend that I am still with today and I kept the baby. He's now a healthy little boy! I found out that I was pregnant again right after his first birthday. My boyfriend (his father) automatically said abortion and told me to start calling around. I did so, but I never felt right about it. As the weeks passed, I looked at ultrasound pictures online and read up on the development of the baby was inside of me. A couple days before my first appointment with Planned Parenthood, I cried hard. I knew what I was doing was wrong, but my boyfriend made it seem like it would be the best decision and it would benefit our year-old son. At my first appointment, they did an ultrasound, which I saw frozen and way zoomed back, so it just looked like a little dot/ball. I was told I was about 6 weeks, 1 day. Four days later, I went in for the procedure. I felt everything. It hurt so bad and the doctors and nurses were all so young and just yapping away. My fists were clenched and I was in tears. I couldn't help but wonder if I could feel it, could my baby feel it too? Ever since then, I can't help but feel sad. I want my baby back. I shouldn't have done what I did. There are other options I could have chosen from. Now, I know that my initial perspective and feelings toward abortions were correct. They're wrong. and I am in fact against them.
Date: March 10, 2012