I had an abortion 2 years ago, on a November 14. I clearly remember every bit of it as though it was yesterday. The extreme guilt and feeling of despair is like no other I have felt...I was 18 at the time in which I got pregnant and I as well as my boyfriend agreed that it was the best "choice". Well, it was not. It was the worst decision I could have ever made. Since the abortion, I was on the verge of becoming an alcoholic, I drank myself to sleep every night for several months. I tried to kill myself twice, with no luck. My existence seemed unfair and meaningless after I allowed my child's life to be taken before my very eyes. The worst part of it all was that I consciously sat there through the whole thing, being paralized, with pain and fear, not being able to protect my child's life. I allowed it to happen, and that is what has been a constant torture ever since that day.
Date: November 17, 2005