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I am a 29 year old woman. I have 8 children with my partner, the youngest is 7 months. My partner has depression, and I didn't think life could get any harder until 3 days ago. I had an abortion. My partner and I agreed we couldn't cope with another child, although I didn't want the abortion. He thought it was the right thing to do. I went in hospital on Thursday and from the time I got on the ward, I couldn't stop crying. I was hoping and praying that my partner would tell me not to do it. It was a hope that came too late. I had the surgical procedure and was sterilised so I cant ever have more children. I can tell you now it was the worst mistake of my life. I would rather cope with 10 children than the effects of abortion. How do I have the right to kill my child? I cry all the time. I've killed my baby, and I will never be able to have another. But I don't deserve another baby after what I have done. I hate myself and my partner. I think I should have died with my baby, but that would not be fair to my other children, so my punishment is to live with the hurt and pain of what I've done for the rest of my life. I hope anyone thinking of abortion will please think again because unless you're heartless, the effects of abortion can destroy your life as well as your unborn child. Believe me, I know!

Age: 29
Location: UK
Date Submitted: January 22, 2012