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Abortion was the scariest thing that I ever did. It still hurts to see the last picture of how my baby looked before she was taken away from me. I can't sleep at night, and every night I feel her presence around me. I never thought I would cry so much in my life. I never knew I was pregnant until I took two pregnancy tests. I broke down and cried when I saw the tests come back positive. I told my mom immediately that I wanted an abortion. When I told my dad, he shunned me and told to get an abortion. As I sat down and thought about it, I wanted to give my baby life. I was crying so much. I was so concerned about my blood pressure problems and my boyfriend’s habits of drinking and smoking. We weren’t stable in our lives and didn’t have jobs yet or even a stable home for our baby. When I told my boyfriend, he was shocked and told me he would support my decision. I went back and forth about keeping it or giving it back to God. When I went to the clinic, I was scared. I knew this is what I didn’t want. When it was over, it hit me so hard when I came back home. It hurt me so much that my baby was no longer here and that she was gone forever. I cried so much and asked God to forgive me and to tell my baby that I didn’t mean what I did and that I love her still. My friend warned me that I would go through this. Since my abortion happened, I don’t feel good about myself. I never thought I would get this depressed and sad. I still cry and think, "what if?" It hurts me every day that my baby isn’t here. If i could turn back, I would keep my baby. But now I’ll have to deal with this for the rest of my life. All I have to do now is strive for my second child and bring it where both parents are ready and steady in our lives. I’m striving to find peace and happiness for myself and for my baby. To all who read this, think first before you have an abortion, and think about the consequences that come along with it. Abortion is not a good option to choose. Think about your baby.

Age: 20
Location: Yonkers, NY
Date: April 29, 2014